It Girls.

I don't feel like any social networking site will allow me to rant about something so I've decided to do so here. The topic? It girls. Created to be looked up to and to empower the young teenage girl who is an aspiring anything. I love It-Girls, I do. Their stories give you that spark of hope to fulfill the dream of being what ever you want to be. Unfortunately, they don't empower me, they depress me. I'm sure that this feeling is fueled only by jealousy. My favorite It-Girls create a name for themselves by the time they are sixteen. I turn seventeen in two months and I have no idea where I'm going. Everybody loves the pretty little thing who is sweet and social but here I am on the other side of the spectrum pounding away at the keyboard, spilling out my emotions and spewing with anti-love slogans all over. I must be charming. Would it be foolish of me to think that I don't feel so "out there" because I lack certain freedoms? I feel couped up, I hate where I am, I hate who I'm identified as being with. I feel oppressed. This image I have already created for myself seems to be my downfall. It is as if I had a lot of potential to be that person everybody loved but I broke her. I put up walls around myself with this persona of what people thought I was, separating me from who I really am. Is this only a teenage state of mind? Will I get over this? Am I just tired? Does anyone even look at this blog?